thoughts

ya know, i've come to wonder why asian parents are generally viewed as being harsher on their children than american parents are. why asian parents expect so much of their children. maybe its because of their old confucianist ideals? maybe the whole family represents society thing makes them strive for excellence in the family which would parallel into society or something? i dunno, whatever. but that would only apply to chinese parents. maybe it is only the chinese that are so harsh on their children? (not that i would know..) i guess confucianist principles could have spread to other asian countries? then again, the whole "asian parent" stereotype could just be a myth, maybe it is actually asian children who push themselves to excellence? ya know maybe its just the americans who dont work hard enough. from what i hear, european kids have it pretty difficult, too.
frakin americans and their frakin education system. everything is fraekin based on GRADES. (well i guess that goes for the whole world, doesnt it?) every single little thing counts towards college. and then you have to go through an arduous application process, write essays: "what kind of person are you?" "why did you pick our college?" "hey, i get paid to read your essays, so why dont you write another one?" blah blalh b ahl. in asia and europe, all you have to do to apply to a college is take a test. ONE TEST. thats it. and youre done. i dont know about you, but i would much rather take one test and get it over with, than having to go through all of the crap that is american. whats worse is not only do they make you go through all the crap, but they even find a way to make money from it, frekin capitalistic society. the world makes me sick.
i bet my rambings sound pretty stupid, better stop complaining before the kgb (cough) i mean, the patriot act implementors come and silence me for good. this post looks kinda long, props to all who get this far. Now watch, im gonna feel pretty stupid when someone posts a one line comeback that completely puts my whole entry to shame. i hate it when that happens.

evil testing serpent

i took the sats again. everything seemed to have went ok. i suffered some unecessary anxiety, though. i remember i was half way through the first section, and i looked up at the clock to find that i had about 2 min left. i immediately started panicking, thinking (it was a math section, btw) "SHIATthere goes my perfect score in math..." and started going at ultrahypersonic speed. about 2 min later i hear,

proctor-"5 min remaining"...

this triggered an immediate glance at the clock, and... the hands werent moving... and the hour hand was pointing at the wrong hour. so previously i had only paid attention to the minute hand and completely ignored the hour hand. and the fact that both were stationary. not to mention the second hand.
this brought some relief and i felt the adrenaline in my body slowly receding. i cursed myself for my stupidity and finished the section at a more pleasant, relaxed pace.

damn clocks..

hey look!

i cant get my ftp to work
i guess its blogspot for now.